"Be it unto me..."

     I know I briefly shared in my last blog, my experience last Saturday at the Woman's retreat.  I know beyond a shadow of any doubt that I had a God experience there, I had prayed a very specific, no room for error, prayer, and He very specifically, no room for error, answered me.  That was the "period" so to speak that wrapped up the entire event.  Something changed within me, I have been "in the Spirit" ever since then, I feel and see God's presence everywhere since then, He has unlocked something within me, that I never want to lose.  But with that, comes the attack.....I have also been under spiritual attack since I left there.  I have had HAE attacks off and on all week, I have felt physically sick, I have had to pray off the spirits of fear and doubt, and to fight to hang on, and remain in the place He put me last weekend.  But He is good, and He is faithful, and to be honest, He has awoken me each day this week, long before sunrise in the early morning hours.....I have to admit, I didn't want to answer Him, I was sleepy, I was tired, I didn't feel well, and had long work days ahead of me this week, and I acted like my kids do when they don't want to get up and go to school....I kicked my feet, pouted, and pulled the covers back over my head, and told Him, "just 10 more mins.".....crazy, huh?  Well, this morning, right on time, He called to me, and awoke me just after 4:30am.....this morning, I decided to answer, and I got up, said a good morning prayer, and for some reason, turned on the christian channel on t.v.  I started listening to a message, and at one point he mentioned, when God brings a message to you, respond like Mary, meaning, you might not understand, or have fears and doubts, but respond, "What you say, be it unto me."  hmmm....I then opened my bible, and my ipad "ap" and began a study....I figure if He woke me before the sunrise, He must have a lesson for me.  And boy, did He ever.

     We all know the Christmas, story, and know that the event mentioned above, was when the angel had appeared to Mary and delivered the message that she was going to give birth to Jesus.  How overwhelmed and terrified she must have fought to not feel, she even asked the angel, "how can this be, I have not been with a man"-(which, there is a whole other lesson that came with that point, that I will share at a later time)-she had questions, she had insecurities,  but she also had blind faith, and with that, not fully understanding how things were going to transpire, she responded: "What you have spoken, Be it unto me."  What He has shown me this morning, is that is the moment, that the Word became flesh, the moment that He stepped out of His world, and became an active part of ours.  And He also showed me how much Satan and all of his demons HATED that moment, and did all they could to stop that, and destroy Him.  He also revealed to me, that I also have had my "Mary" moment.  I have been fortunate enough to have grown up in church my entire life, I have had the bible stories, and vacation bible schools, and retreats become so much a part of me, that I can't imagine not growing up any other way.  I became a Christian many years ago, but just within the last few years, have come to understand, that getting saved, and becoming a Christ follower are two totally different things.  I have shared before, how God has called me into, what I like to call, my destiny moment within the past two years. Anyone who knows this story, knows that this is not just a simple coincidence, it is a God initiated, God planned, God anointed plan.  In January, I had my "Mary" moment.  Pastor Allen, at WOC, had started our New Year's series, and I knew that sermon was for me.  God spoke to me, and revealed to me that how I thought this whole plan was going to occur, was nothing like He intended.  He called me out of my comfort zone, to where I would have to depend totally on Him.  I was terrified, but that was the day that he told me to make a choice, either move ahead with Him, and seize hold of the purpose He designed me for, or literally forfeit it, and stay where I was.  Without realizing it, I thankfully, responded like Mary, "I don't understand it, I am terrified of this, but, what You have said, 'be it unto me'".

  I am going to share with you, one of the things that God woke me up to teach me this morning, Satan HATES when we have our "Mary moments".  He hates when we also allow the Word to become flesh within us, meaning, when we truly, fully allow Jesus to be "born" in us.  Even as I type this, the entire blog website is freezing, my keyboard is locking up,  and I have errors in trying to save this, when just minutes ago, it worked fine while, I checked facebook and emails.  So, you might as well stop Satan, I am going to type this, either now, or later.....anyway, back to the point...Satan HATES when we, like Mary, allow the Son of God to reside in us, to grow and mature within us, to the point, that we have no doubt when we see a very pregnant woman, that we know that there is life within her, that those around us, can't help but notice that His life is within us.  God showed me thru my study this morning, that the way we do that is stop "thinking", stop "saying" the things we feel led to do, and start "doing".  That is thing that Satan detests.  He doesn't care when we think
God thoughts, or have good intentions, it is when we began to walk those out, and put our preaching into practice, that satan begins to attack.  He knows that the moment we begin to do that, is the moment, the Word becomes flesh in our own, individual lives.  God showed me the verses in Daniel, where the angel appeared to Him, and said:  "Fear not, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your mind to understand and humbled yourself before your God, your words have been heard, and I have come because of your words".  God heard me, in January, when I, despite my fear, despite my doubts, I said: "What You have said, be it unto me."  And like Daniel, like Mary and Joseph, He dispatched angels to protect that fragile, innocent new "birthing" of the Word becoming flesh, the moment that He stepped out of His world into mine.  He knew Satan hated that, and also had dispatched his own demons to destroy that, to trip me up, and set me off course.  I honestly think that, like Daniel, even though all the way back in January, when I set my mind to understand and began to humble myself before Him, He heard my words, and honored them, it took my angels all this time, to reach me.  I do believe that when we set our hearts, and minds, and more importantly our actions on the thoughts of God, and fight with all we have to align ourselves and our paths with Him and His will, He will protect us.  If He loved Daniel that much prior to the sacrifice of His Son, how much more will He intervene to protect the fragile, chipped, "earthen vessels", that allows that Word to become flesh and dwell within us?

    Today, I am thankful for alot of things.  I am thankful that He called to me this morning, that He didn't give up on me, and was patient, and held this lesson, and kept calling to me, until I answered.  I am also thankful for the attacks I have been under this week, based on the lesson I had with Him this morning, I, at least for this moment, must be doing something right, something satan hates, and hopefully I am one moment closer to fully letting the Word become flesh in my life, I am one step closer to fully letting Him consume me and be birthed into me.  If I can give anyone who reads this one piece of advise, listen to Him, answer Him, sit at His feet and learn....He has all the answers you will ever need, all you have to do is shut out this world, and hear Him.  Onward to the next step of this journey, but for the grace of God, go I.......