Do you believe me now?

Wow....what a day this has been.  It is amazing to me, how despite the fact that God presents Himself all around us, we still have to struggle sometimes to not only see Him, but hear Him as well.  I first want to thank my sweet friend-(and sister)-Rose for inviting me to the Ladies Retreat that we attended today.  She has such a heart for God, and not only listens to Him continuously, she also shouts it to everyone she meets.  I don't want to think about where I might be spirtually if she had not been placed into my life.  She invited me to this event several days ago, and basically told me that I did not have a choice...I was going.  And boy am I glad I did.

  If you think that God is not moving among His people, and calling us to a place to stand up for what we believe in, and really take hold of what He has taught us, I urge you to really ask Him to open your eyes to see that.  I know that each generation thinks that theirs will be the one to see His return, but I feel in my spirit that it is closer than ever.  Each day, it seems that He is putting people onto my radar that are desperate for Him,....truly desperate, but I will leave that for another time, today, I only want to take a moment to thank Him.....thank Him for showing up at this little home, that has been converted to be a place of ministry.  It was one of those God moments, that leaves you overwhelmed and awed anew at Him and his mercies and grace.  One of those moments that leaves you , literally, craving more of Him, desiring Him to consume you.  One of those moments where you have to be spiritually dead to walk away the same way you arrived.

He has been giving me visions, so to speak, with each of the people he has crossed my path with, and I will share more of those later, but the one I want to share today is how we have become an army of babies to Him.  Something has shifted in our nation , to where we have so few true warriors to fight for and with Him.  I borrow that term, warriors, from one of the ladies today, but that is one of the things that I walked away with today...He is calling me to be a warrior, He is tired of playing spiritual "games" with me....He is tired of reminding me that He has delivered me from certain things for a reason....and as I was taught today, He is a God who runs, a God who moves, a God who is constant...and if I don't get my act together, He is going to run right by me.  Wow....who wants that?  Who wants our destiny to be given to someone else?  Because that is what will happen, He has called me for a specific purpose, and He has-(and is) equipping me with all I need to complete that, but He doesn't have time for my hesitation anymore....the time is drawing near....He has a sense of urgency....the people of the earth are dying spirtually, the people He loves so much that He sacrificed all of Himself for, and they are important to Him.  Important enough that if I don't get with Him, He will have no choice to pass by me.   That is something that breaks my heart.  I have blogged before that God has been laying on my heart,  what it means to truly take hold of what being created in His image is all about.  I was reminded today that in the garden, God knew exactly where Adam was when He searched for him after he has fallen, but what He was looking for was His reflection, ...His image.....what He found for the first time, was the stench of sin.....wow....I don't want God to not be able to see me because He can't move past my stench to truly see His reflection...I don't want Him to search for me....I want Him to be able to look on this earth and see me lit up like a beacon,...I want Him to be drawn to me....to know me.  I know when my kiddos sing in the choir at church, they are among probably 60 or more kids, but you better believe it only takes me minutes to pick them out of the crowd, and in my heart, say..."that's my kid."  That's how I want to be to Him,....where among all of the brokeness and the unlawfullness, He is drawn to me, and says:  "That's my kid".

I was taught to never ask for signs, that we should just have blind faith, but I do find myself asking God for signs...most of you know the feather story......well today I did just that.   I asked God for a very specific sign....He has, and is, speaking to me about areas in my life, and things He is calling me to-(and out of)-and I specifically asked Him, "God if this is you, if this is your will, and I am hearing you correctly, then have the lady in charge of this retreat pray over me."  I ended up staying later than I had planned at the retreat, all the way to the very end....I guess I was waiting to see if  He would answer that prayer.....refer back to the "waiting" blog to know what a walk in obediance that was.....anyway.....right at the end....and wow...God is moving me even as I try to type this......right at the end...she was leading the final worship, and all of a sudden she handed the microphone to someone else, and made a straight path right to me, and asked if she could pray over me.....I honestly can't tell you a word she said....as soon as I saw her make eye contact with me, and start my way, my entire soul was moved.   As soon as she touched me, I felt God overwhelm me and say..."Do you believe me now?".....she and I shared a sweet moment afterward, and she said she had specifically intended NOT to single anyone out and pray with them...but God spoke to her, and she could see His compassion over me, and she had no choice but to come to me.....wow.....I really have no words to say how I feel....my spirit is still crying out to Him, thanking Him, absorbing Him......will share more when I can....overwhelmed at Him again....but for the grace of God go I.....